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2010-12-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 6th MONTHSARY BABY!

I LOVE YOU BODOH!

2010-12-21T13:46:00.002+08:00

Hello dearie bloggie.

Im all stuck right here. I didnt know what im suppose to do. Sigh, am i asking you too much? Am i being too demanding? Did i control you? Uh ?

I dont see anything like you like how i first met you, seriously.. I didnt know how should i feel. Im all over filled with tears. Yes, i didnt trust you im building this trust. I love you freaking much you know that ? I dont know who are you right now, you seems freaking different. I miss you, the old you... :(

It hurts me somehow, what u've said. Like seriously, you want a space on your own. Go ahead, tell me.. What's the use of being in a relationship ?

And now i cried for the same damn thing.

2010-12-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

Daughter: Where i find the Right Man for me?

Father: Dont worry about finding the right guy. Concentrate on Being The Right Women.

Jealousy and anger are emotional reactions to believing scenarios in your mind that are not true.

“Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less.” — Nicholas Sparks

“Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.” ~ Mother Teresa

If you live with the fear of getting hurt, maybe you will, but if you live with the certainty you're being loved, then you'll always be~Abby

Be grateful every day for the person you are and the person you have by your side. ~Chris & Abby

Give thanks for that special person you share your life with because remember that they are the ones that add value to your life" ~Chris

Everyday be Thankful for that person or persons who bring a smile to your face...They make every step of the way count. ~Chris

How many things you lose for fear of losing? ~Abby

How do you make your relationship better day by day? Make it different, make it amazing!~Chris & Abby

In love, Respect, share, laugh and love the way you love them to love you. Is a Universal Principle to Give so that you can Receive. ~Chris

Ignore worries, forget problems, Pardon enemies, keep promises.

Do not take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless

2010-12-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

You know, u never slip in my mind even just for a day.

Somehow, somwhere. I just need you to be with me like how we used to. This distance is killing me slowly. I miss you so much! I miss how we used to be. I miss you bestfriend! :(
All i want now is for us to be back again like normal times. I miss you, i miss your blurness.
I did made a mistake. So as everyone. I didnt know it will hurt me this much of being away from you. I want everything to get normal again. That phone call that i made was to forget everything and went back to normal.I miss you and i really do. That moment of angry was just thatmoment. Now, im no longer angry or dissapointed or whats so ever.

You still my pillar of strength that i always lean on.I love you bestfriend, and that vows wont end till now. We will still be together no matter what. Like you said, every each misunderstanding or etc,it will makes us be much stronger and more understanding twards each other.
Remember thiss, as much as you miss me.. I miss you much more bestfriend, because all along u were there with me thru day or night. You heals everything even its tough.

You brighten up everything with just your present. And bestfriend, i miss you.:( ♥

*i dont care even how long it takes for us to be back together with you, yaya and irah.

I'll still wait and keep on fighting for this.

Take my words. I'll do anything to have you back with us.

Its not complete without you.

2010-11-26T23:40:00.010+08:00

Hello cyberworld♥

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

Its friday, yes weekend is hereee! :D wuhoo! So, today ive celebrate my birthday with my awesome friends plus my sweet boyfriend! I went for attachment in the morning then off straight to home, waited for bestfriend, MusfirahKamal♥ off we went to clark quay to meet Siti Radhiah and Khalya.

Fi thought of trying bungee jumping at Clark Quay, so off we went there then thanks rad and fi for the treat! :D

The bungee jumping was AWESOME! THUMBSUP PLUS MY LEG TOES! wuhhoo! Superb! i love it although its freaking scary, but i enjoy it.

Thanks babeees!

Off we went to MGB to had our dinner, didnt know that sayang♥ have planned to meet him there. So yeah, while busy talking to Radhiah and Khalya, he suddenly appear with Adam. Wow! what a shock man! It was super sweet!

Thanks sayang♥,Firah, Rad,Khalya and Adam for the surprise. So yeah, cant wait for tmorrow, sayang say its gonna be awesome, he said that my wish going to come true! Oh god, im so nervous and excited for tmorrow! :D How will it be like.. Hrmps..

So yeah, legal already laaaa! :D Geees, thanks for the awesome surprise and treat! I love it! :D

Thankyou sayang♥ it was sweet of you! I love it. Mwahs!

Im off for now, gonna updte tmrow's outcome. :)

26/11/10♥

2010-11-22T00:37:00.002+08:00

Woah, it has been such a long period of time since i last blog a proper one. I just feel like blogging somehow.

Urms, school? Im left with 3 more weeks. heh, then i can say im done with my course. Geez! Wuhooo. I just felt that i just went in few months ago and now couldnt believe it that i actually made it through till the end. :D Thanks to bestfriend who followed me for the first freaking time in Ite Simei, for my interview. I made it through bestfriend! Heh!

So, ive thought of working at IMH, so ive took the forms and yeah, submitting very soon. Insyallah i get thru and yeah, next year gonna be workaholic women! hahahas! :D

This friday im gonna be a year older, 18. Hrm.. my next goal will be driving license. So, hopefully everything goes well. Insyallah. amin.

Urms, i didnt ask much for my birthday. All i want is to be with love and bestfriends. Thats all i asked for. Hoping so..

Anyway, this year ending soon. Ive met my previous goal to get lifetime partner. Ive did, thank god for sending down an angel to love me. You know, i wouldnt be this strong if you wasnt present. You made me stronger each day.. The present of you had change me into a better person. You shine me light when im almost filled with darkness.

I love you very much, i do and i wont stop till my last heart beat stops.
♥Muhd Azri

2010-11-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

“Some people dream of success while others wake up and work hard at it.”

“Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you will be with me through out my lifetime.”

“Flowers don’t worry about how they’re going to bloom. They just open up and turn toward the light and that makes them beautiful.”

“Half of life is fucking up. The other half is dealing with it.”

“But sometimes no matter how careful you plan your playlist, there’s no right track for what awaits you.”

“Remember it all, every insult, every tear. Tattoo it on the inside of your mind. In life, knowledge of poisons is essential. I’ve told you, no one becomes an artist unless they have to.”

“Everybody goes through rough things in their lives, us included. The best advice we can give is to never give up, and always believe in yourself because when you do that, anything is possible.”- Ray Toro

“No one’s ever stuck anywhere… You are where you need to be right now. And when you are finished doing whatever it is that you are meant to be doing, then you move on…”

How do you know when you miss someone? It's when you're in a very happy crowd... but still, you're longing for someone to be with you.

How do you know when you miss someone? It's when you're in a very happy crowd... but still, you're longing for someone to be with you.

“Don’t forget anything you do, cause in the end it makes you who you are”

The truth is, we can never really trust anybody than ourselves.

Nothing can describe how i feel now.
♥

2010-11-06T02:31:00.003+08:00

I really do, your worth fighting for ♥
MUHD AZRI

"the rest of my life, i'll be with you thru day and night."

2010-11-04T22:14:00.004+08:00

"It’s funny how you think you actually mean something to someone, and they just turn around and prove you wrong. "

“You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That’s the only thing you should be trying to control.”

"Everything is still the same. It’s just a little different now."

“A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have.”

“Maybe nothing lasts forever-not the mountains nor the sea, but the times we had together, they will always be with me.”

“Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.”

“Your worst behavior is reserved for the personwho loves you most because somehow no matter what you do,that person will still and always accept you as YOU.”

2010-10-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

Im just fucking pissed off with some people they are just some fuckers who cant see me happy. What fuck you want from us? What fuck did i tell u? Since when i talk to you? Bloody hell, Im only gonna release this bloody anger that im having now here. Cos i know, this will get ugly if i were to confront further more im fucking pissed off right now. What fuck you want bitch? Im doing great with my fucking life, and you fucking just ruin it. What else you want ? i dont fucking bother you or fucking think about you. You fucking bother my life. What fuck you think you are doing? Why? Im bloody gonna punch your face you know, dont think im keeping quiet all this while you fucking stepping on my head. Who do you think you are. Im not a kid that you fucking can fool around and play with me. You bloody hell fucking go to hell okay bitch. Dont trigger my anger, it has been patience all along and you keep on pulling my legs around. FUCKER. URGHHHHHHHHHHHH!

You dont give me a single cent for me to live so bloody hell fuck off and stop bother me and my life. What you say doesnt effects me at all, but it has come to an end that you make it looks ugly bitch. You know i bloody pissed off with you and dont like you and further more thats my personal feelings i have for you since first i saw u, i dont fucking bother you at all, i dont fucking ditch you or what so ever, i just fucking mind my own business.

Im fucking pissed off. fuck you.
Dont ever start the fire bitch because you will regret the whole life of yours bitch. I make sure, i will be the worst person you ever deal with, fucker.

fuckoff bitch. you just wants to badly see my ugly side bitch.
__ some fuckers who need to learn about life in a hard way. BITCH!

URGH! *slaps forehead*

2010-09-19T17:55:00.001+08:00

I love you much more every single day.

It's been awhile. .

2010-09-19T15:59:00.004+08:00

Hi sweetheart,

It's been awhile since I last write a post. But not to worry, I've been checking on the blog. Well, it's indeed a long time we've been together and I'm happy that things are goin on well and strong for the both of us. Although there are arguments here and there at times, I guess its a natural thing to happen in a relationship. .Like they always say, "If there are no quarrels in a Relationship, that means you don't know your partner that well enough."

I've been bz with work and freelance lately. Well, to find extra income to save and pay things. I'm sure you know wat I mean. I just hope this paying thing will end soon and I can concentrate on my savings and also license. I know you so much want me to have license for the ease of us but like I said, I prefer not to have it now and just go with wat I have. I hope you understand my situation and hope you won't rush me on this k syg. . and I hope you could go with the flow also and don't rush things.

Btw, just a quick check. . It's 1 week away from holiday and 2 months away to your 18th Birthday and 3 months away to 2011. A brand new age strikes you and therefor change to be a better person in some ways or another and a brand new year strikes us and therefor hope happiness will always be with us. Time just pass by so fast, tings change everytime, and can't expect it to go the same way. Such is life. .

I just hope in this life and journey of our relationship things would always be great and that less obstacles strikes us. I know at times things just can't be avoided and that I have to learn to accept it. As much as I'm coping with it I hope it won't keep on repeating. Let's pray hard on this.

Sayang, I hope you see a different thing in this relationship of ours and that new things come your ways and that you always cherish it in some ways or another. I know ur still learning and wat not but I hope that you learn as much as you can and that make things better for the both of us. I guess that's all I have t say for now. .

I'll be waiting for time to pass by to go for my photoshoot, and I shall be back home soon k. Don't worrie and think too much. .Btw, I purposely make this post all green bcoz you love the colour and also, its good for your eyes after a long time of staring at the PC. .

I love u loads sweeteart. Muacks. . .

2010-09-19T00:07:00.004+08:00

Dear MUHD AZRI GAN♥,

Somehow i feel like typing this out.. Something that i feel about us .We have gone thru together from the start and now, still holding on strong..You know i never felt love this much towards anyone, My love for you is going stronger and stronger. Mistakes by me that ive made that is alot. I know by saying sorry is nothing but but showing you that im really sorry counts. You know sayang, i didnt want us to be carried away with things that came in between us. Maybe yes i am in the wrong at times by not having the sense of urgency.. but sometimes things that came in between us i couldnt get away from it, i have to face it. Maybe its a challenge that god bring down for us to see how patience and how we can overcome all this.

Hold my hand baby, and lets walk thru all kind of obstacles either big or small ones. Insyallah if go thru all this with sincerely insyallah everything will go fine and smoothly.. All we need is time.. Insyallah amin. Everytime after going out with you thru out the whole day i have fun and full of laughter and seeing us to go saparate ways to go home it saddens me, i feel like putting u in my pocket and stuff u in there and bring you to home and bring u to everywhere i go.. I hate missing u badly and I hate not able to be by your side like you said what can we do right.. Endurance? yeah i guess.. Like u said, Our love journey is meant to be this way, so we got to accept it.. Insyallah, like mak always say.. susah dulu senang kemudian. Insyallah!

I always wanna be by your side. Staring at your tiny winny eye for hours can already, because the exist of you in front of my eyes completes my life. I thank god that i am now falling freaking deeep for this angel that god created. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Insyallah sayang, our journey doesnt ends here.. Keep going just like circle is keep going on and on it doesnt stop because circle doesnt have an ending just like me and you. :'D I love you like crazy and deeply in love with you only. My one and only secret admire that i use to hook with. I never regret my whole life for being with you. I appriciate the exist of you. You colour my life with brighter colours. I love you honey! :D

you know we start calling papa and mama and we also start looking at kids. We love kids so much. ahhas. Insyallah we will have one . Insyallah.. amin. Your my cutest hotstuff that i fall for. :) keep smilling and put up a smile on me.. love me and cherish me and most imp of all is, accept me for who i am.. i love you.

Nothing went lesser for you. My feelings is blooming stronger and stronger.. I love you through out all my life. I never want to find someone else better then u, cause to me your the perfect one and the best for me.

You asked me, what if all those sweet moments that we had someday just gone ?
I kept quiet and yes it stuck in my head and set me thinking.. All i can say is im not ready for it to happen because all i know i need you through out my whole journey of life.. I will make sure things will get better day after day and negative things wont take over and destroy us. Keep holding on to my hands, locks my finger with yours and walk thru every single day together.

I love you honey bunny sugar bunch!

Mwaaaahs!

2010-09-05T09:05:00.004+08:00

GoodMorning love ('':

Its 9.06am, i couldnt sleep well, i keep waking up.. Tears keep falling.. Sigh.. :'( I couldnt help it.. There's many things running in my mind. All i could do is cry. Sayang is most probably sleeping right now his tired.. Nvm. :'(

i love you v much. mwahs.

2010-08-31T20:34:00.003+08:00

♥

2010-08-31T19:33:00.004+08:00

HELLO ♥

My blog has been dead lately.. Urms, sorry horr.. My days is been filled with buke-ing with sayang, friends then i work etc. So yeah, my 2 weeks of holidays has ended. Let me tell u what i did during this 2 weeks of holidays. Urms, I work at Mgb for a week supposingly i have to work for 2 week but yeahhhhss.. :D Anyway, a week of working in Mgb make me realise how different things went between me and sayang. I didnt have time for him, arguements, missing each other so badly, I didnt sleep well.. So yeah, moral of the story, dont work. :D So yeah, everything has done and settled. Im just waiting for my payday which in 2-3 days time. yeay! Urms, i was sick for 2-3 days, my tummy decided not to accept the foods so yeah, i vomit like 3-5 times. -_-' Well, went to doctor, eaten their meds and now im healthy back! :D Alhamdulillah. syukur.

Thanks to sayang for the running nose pills.

Urms, so yeah days pass by.. I completed my 'project'. Lols. It was the video i did for sayang ler. Urms, yeah, thank god it looks nice. Im not that good in doing videos' so yeah. Success! well done faa :) So yeah, sayang like itt.. yeay! geee.. I like to collect pictures that i took with u and put it as one piece. What i mean was its nice seeing those pictures then we can remember back how we spend time together.. Even its only under a block.. But i really appriciate whenever the time im with you even if its only for a while. Cause i like it, whenever your around, beside me. hehs. Muahs.

So yeah, On 28 August 2010 , its...

(adorable isnt it the rose ? :D )

our 2nd Monthsary♥! .

So yeah, sadly i happen to have Mgb meeting on that day.. So i went Mgb around 12plus then till 2 i gues.. sayang came and thanks to the Manager let me off . Yeay, so we make our way to Marina Sq to walk around. We walk here and there, till we went in this flower shop. Sayang was asking the florist about the flowers etc. Then he ask me to walk to the next shop to see rings. I swear i was nervous like suddenly and i was like blur also. Sumpah i was shock to see that he bought for me a stalk of rose. Aww, i didnt get any rose since few years back. Omg, i was smilling away till my cheek was cramp. We walk around again, and went off to PS. He bought movie ticket through online 'Heartbreaker'. So yeah, we walk around first since it was still early. Then we went in this shop and again, but this time he bought for me fake rose. Omg, i was freaking happy plus touch plus shyshy plus nak ketawe kuat2 plus nak pekik2. hahahs. Got many feelings went into me. hahas.. Aww, it was so sweet you know. I didnt get any roses from anyone before. I was super touch. So we head down to The Cathay and took our tickets and we sat down and wait for another 1/2 an hour for our movie to start. I couldnt tahan fasting so yeah, I break fast.. I drank water. Hehehe! geee! So yeah, we went to watch, then yeah, the movie turns out great. ;D *THUMBS UP * We like it. So yeah, then breakfast for sayang we went to MacD since Swensens, Pizzahut and Pastamania was filled alot of ppl and long queues. :) So yeah. thats all.

Urms, yeah, school has been boring.. Super boring but my days is wonderful because i got my great friends all around me. Yeah, kalau satu hari tak ketawe tak sah. HAhahsas. So yeah, i calculate back we are left with a week of school then Exams then holiday then Cp. Wahs, thats fast like very fast you know!

Next, Our plans for this another Sept Holidays is to travel to Kuala Lumpur on 29 Sept to 2 Oct with Syaf and Zaidee. So yeah, places like petaling street, Berjaya Times Square and many other places that we plan to go. Hopefully everything went well. Insyallah. Still planning by this saturday we will be booking buses etc.

So yeah im having mentrual cramps now. I shall stop. Cause its killing me. #%!~

2010-08-15T04:21:00.005+08:00

Hello love,
Today was my very first day working in MGB. Urms, kinda fun but lil' bit of tiring. I get to learn cashier, but i prefer helper. My mentors say i pekak need to korek telinga. I swear im going to korek telinge. So, sayang came down at 6 plus, we break-fast together. Then i cont working. Pity sayang have to go back home alone.. Sigh. Anyway, yeah.. He's happy cause he got all the things he wants for his shooting. Alhamdulilah, Good for ayang lah. :) happy for you.

And yeah, closing done and now at home. Washed Uniform and pants. Now, yeah im blogging..
My cmfrim shedule for this week

Saturday- 5 to 3

Sunday 5 to 1

Monday 5 to 2

Tuesdays 5 to 2

Wednesday 5 to 2

Thursday 5 - TBC

Urms, thursday and friday im not sure what time ends.

Sayang, i hope u will be fine over there, knowing all this. Sigh, as much as u dont want me to worry about you.. i dont want u to worry about me that much too but yeah, i know we will be worrying about each other. Another 1 week 5 days more and this will stop. I cannot bare seeing u alone, i need u here too being by my side all along.. As i see the fireworks just now with fiza, i remember u . I told you i want see firework with you. :( but u wasnt there u went back home already. U watch it thru tv. While i was serving customer and the same time i check my phone ever now and then because i want to msg u. But due to long queue i cant msg u that much.. Ayang, i miss you so much. Your hugs, your kisses. Its hard to let u off just now too. Its not easy, we've never been this way before. Letting u being alone at home and i know ur freaking hell bored.

Im sorry sayang.. :(

Ya allah kuatkan lah diriku untuk tempuhi ini semua. amin

Ya allah, kau lindung kan dia dari apa2. amin

Muhd Azri i love you very much!

Suprise SWEETHEART!!

2010-08-13T12:04:00.002+08:00

Hello SWEETHEART!!

Its been a long tme since I last update this blog. Guess this is gonna be a long post for you to read since you've been asking me to update it too since last week rite. . ? Hehe. . Hmm. .so let's see where should I begin with..

Let's start with my work and ur school then. Hmm. .my work these days have been quite boring as you know rite sayang. The normal and usual days I will attend to work alone till in the afternoon. Nothing much to do but quite tired these few days as got shoot going on here and there and GOSH. .This Sunday there's a shoot going on for Mendaki from 11am to 1pm. Wat a Sunday. I'm gonna find or rather source out for a new job soon, been asking around. Probably, as a Photographer or Graphic Designer. Grrr. . .As for ur school, hmm. . nothing much going on too rite sayang. .had ur YOG celebration the other time which we CABOT. .hehe. .Wat a fun day we had ya. .haha. . Datang sane, tunjuk muke then berambos. .haha. .

Had a great time spend with you and friends on that very day. Went for dinner together at Changi and I will never forget the S$8 Fish and Chip. .heheheh. . kinda funny though. .but anyways, had photo taking after that which I have yet to upload but will do it soon. Tell the Syaf and Mai. .Just hold on ya. .Will upload it soon. . Reallll soon. .

So wat's next I got in mind. . .Hmm. . My freelance job. This month have been a prosperous month for me sayang. Freelance job have been coming in real good. All thanks to Allah who had given me his blessings in disguised. Although its a small deal but I'm still fortunate to have such deals here and there. Shukur Allahamdullilah. .

Last but not least is about US. .Guess ur gonna enjoy ur holiday soon rite. .? Hehe. .and not only that, ur working. You have been worried lately about wats gonna happen to me when you start working, well. . .all I can say is that. .I'll find ways to manage the time and just occupy those times I'm not with you. . Gonna be BORING though but I guess its just for the next 2 weeks rite sayang. .? Just endure Azri!! You can do it!! You're gonna find time for us anyway rite sayang. . I know you will rite. .

Its been officially 1 mth we've been together and we're on our way to those months and years ahead of us. Everything seems so good so far, just hope that things will go on this way and hope that there won't be a glitch for us. We're happy with each other and fely very comfortable. Insyallah nothing will come our way and if there is, I'm sure we're able to manage it and settle it smoothly rite baby. .

I WANNA LET YOU KNOW THAT, UR ALWAYS IN MY EYES AND NOTHING CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME. EVEN THOUGH UR FAR AWAY FROM ME BUT I KNOW WE'RE ALWAYS CLOSE AT HEART AND NOTHING CAN COMPARE THAN THE WORLD COULD GIVE. . I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BABY NOW AND FOREVER. .I'LL ALWAYS WILL. .

Last but not least, I can't wait for holiday. It's just one month away and we're off . .
I gtg now sayang. .see you soon sweetheart. Always tc of urself.
Love ya loads. . Muacks. .

2010-08-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

:D ALWAYS BE MY BABY..

I dont need a shooting star to make me happy

All need is the exist of you to be by my side

giving me the support and strength while im almost fall

at that point of time.

All i need i you.

You know boy, I miss you every still nano seconds

Let me sream and tell the whole world that im seriously in love with you

No one knows how much i love you, only god knows

This feeling has never lessen perhaps every nano seconds it became more stronger and stronger

I am missing you right now

:'( can i keep you in my pocket so that u wont be far apart from me?

Can i fly to and fro just to peep you in the room and just to see you safe over there ?

Can i hug u like there's no tommorrow ?

YOU KNOW WHAT, i just love you!

i love you

love you

and i love you

AND TAKE NOTE OF THIS MR AZRI GAN,

LETS GROW OLD TOGETHER! :)

2010-08-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO CINTA♥!

we've been together for 1 month 13 days already!
♥Time run uber fast..

So yeah, i always hear this from ppl after asking me and you have been together how long already,

" Wah.. korang dah macam bertahun2 eh."

All i could do i to smile.

So yeah, Its not the matter of how long u are with that someone

is the matter of how you spent ur time, your precious moment with your love once.

So yeah, urms.. So eyah, National Day has past. Behsci test has past. Beg test has past. YES AH!

Urms, now.. Its holiday time. so yeah, few more days to holiday, yes ah. 2 weeks of holiday and yeah, im working at makansutra meanwhile for some reason.. Hrmps, now i have to manage my time for sayang and family. Urms, Insyallah Allah will help me in this. amin.

National was uber great!

I get to watch with my boyfriend♥.

My first ever time, watching with love. :D seeee i told you, your just special! It was the best feeling i ever had. So yeah, my another sayang feeezawr belluci is late. haiyaaa.. Waited for her.. nvm.

Anyway, SELAMAT BERPUASA TO ALL MUSLIMs!

2010-08-01T16:21:00.003+08:00

HELLO LOVE.
1 MONTHS OLD.
Today, im going to blog about "1month". This post gonna be called " 1 month" hahahs. Urms, let me start with school alright. Urms, 1 month of school and yes, its my last term then ill graduate. Urms, many ask, " faa, whats your plans after grad?" Urms, ive thought about this last term.. while i was studying with Fiza. I wrote in a piece of paper that she should give to me next year.That paper i wrote my plans and what i need to achieve after grad. Urms, well.. Ive plan somthing simple. I plan to work at Imh. Yeah, if i badly couldnt get that hosp then boopian lorrr, Sgh lorr. Sigh, then i will be on working life all the way till im a billionaire. hahas. :D Urms thats my plan A, then because of submittion late entry of sponsorship i couldnt get thru simply just like that. So yeah, takde rezeki. I have to wait for reply je lah next year. What to do... Thought of taking license with bond money. Nehs, nvm. I finish it up next year then.

School has been great for me, having wonderful ppl around me. Breaktime is killing me, it can stretch till 4 to 5 hours and we have to wait just for a hour of lesson to go. Like wtf, right ? haiyoo. Sometimes when im alone, and i look around , i wonder why do ppl doesnt wants to see others to be happy. Ive always wanted to see other happy, since im 16 years old i always give away the person who i lasted for a year? I know it must be crazy for you ppl to know this, its like what else can i do right? I couldnt stop anyone from loving, since they love each other so much why not i move back and give way even though it has been a year. I want see other ppl to be happy. But after expriencing all this, ive become much more strong person to overcome all this wen it occurs again. I dont want to lose Muhd Azri right now, I wont give him away to anyone. I treasure him so much, and the most importantly I love him very much! Now, its time for me to have that happiness. And my happiness with Muhd Azri. So, yeah, basically school was just like boring bt yet i met alot alot kinds of ppl. No soccer trainning meanwhile because of exams, puasa and raya. Hoping the best for Polite, simply means Poly vs Ite. So yeah, not aiming that much, but still if im choosen to be in it, alhamdulillah.

Urms, lets talk about love now. Muhd Azri has been mine for 1 month alrready. Time travel very fast. Many things come in between us. Stupid times, happy times. Urms, thank god we go thru it together. With the support of each other we make it thru. Alhamdulillah. Some stupid things lah. But yeah, we look forward, learn and not to repeat. What done is done. Whats in the past remain past now, lets think about future. Muhd Azri has been a super duper great boyfriend. Urms, dont kembang okay sayang. He click v well with my aunt,uncle,friends and my mom. I like that!

Lets talk about something random. Urms, money? Well, which one you prefer money or happiness ? Some may say, Without money we cannot have happiness and some says that, happiness doesnt needs money, money you can get anywhere but money you have to work hard on it.Money = Happiness ! Yes money is equal to happiness and happiness is equal to money. The problem here is not about money or the happiness. Because for it to be equal what we have to do is to stabalize the time for happiness and the time the money that we want. So yeah, time management is a part of it. Manage money manage happiness insyallah everything will goes wonderfullliaaa! hahas.

Urms anyway, excuse me from having this huge posts. If you think its too long u feel like sleeping or whtvr you can kindly click the cross 'x' button at ur top right corner. Thank you. :D

Urms,this past whole week i met sayang the whole week. Well, i loikee! but i have to think about upcoming exams and bcls is up on either wed or thursday to friday. Urms sunday is like a bitch! All of us has to come down for the torch wtvr thing. Like wth? So merepek. Seriously laah! Then luckily the next day is national day and its public holiday.

Sayang's dad birthday is on that day. So yeah, i receive alot of invition for national day. So yeah, i got no idea about this. Urms, during YOG i will be working since its 2weeks holiday to pay up mum and abg..Havent ask abg yet about this, hopefully he help me up first. Sight.. I have to buy the panasonic lumix by this week since ive llost it. sorry mon. :( I was utterly dissapointed with myself till now.Stupid faa! Sigh, what else i can do right,

:( sway saanngat2 T_T"

There is goes puasa then it goes by raya, thought of wearing white pink.. Insyallah.
After raya, my plans for KL with sayang and syaf and zaidee. Well, we got to book bus and hotel. Date is set, 29sept to 2oct. Going Kl. So yeah, holiday please come faster. :D hehee.
Alright till here my posts.

HAPPY 1 MONTH DEAREST BOYFRIEND!
Happy Birthday Ianie :)

Happy Birthday Umai&Ram :)

Happy Birthday Lenny Sumarni :)

Happy Birthday Abg khairul! :D

2010-07-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU LIKE ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT! HEH!

Dear love,

HAPPY 1st MONTH
ANNIVERSARY SAYANG!

Today right after the clock strikes 12am is our 1 month anniversary. Very fast right sayang? alhamdulillah, so far nothing seems to be wrong in each of us. We understands each other. I hope this will go on till our last breath. I cherish every each single moments with you. You can just make my day, u manage to put a smile on me, eventhou im tired. But still your the best person who i wanna spend thru out my life.

So yeah, you did for me a frame and i did for you a pillow.

So cute of you, i love it very much. i swear. i keep smilling while looking at it, So nice of you. :) thank you boyfriend. Anyway, i ve always love you and this will be forver. (: amin. I will be always be with you thru hard times and happy times. I love you very much just like awan ngan langit takleh dipisahkan. :D hehe.

Insyallah.

"I love you as much as you do. I never regret knowing you and be with you. I love each and everytime im with you! i love you sayang.."

Wat a day. .

2010-07-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

Hi syg ..

Wat a day we had today. It was a totally bad day for us I guess. How can we avoid such things to happen rite. Well, there's ntg we can do. Like u mention, just be patient and leave it to god. I just hope that this nonsense thing would settle. .

Btw sweetheart, I would like to let u know that, ur my first gf who is so understanding, loving, caring and just like being with me all the time. I hope that this feeling wouldn't change and that we're always be this way as time goes by. .

I want u to also know that, I would never leave u k. .everytime I hug and u, meet and kiss you, it really brings us together and everytime when I wanna head back home, its so difficult for me to just leave u. .

I guess thats all for now, I can't wait to meet u tomorrow and spent the time again. I love u loads sweetheart, muacks. .Missing u soo much rite now. .

2010-07-22T23:34:00.001+08:00

i love you sayang. (:

i dont have much things to say.

thank god i found you.

2010-07-19T22:39:00.003+08:00

DEAR MUHD AZRI GAN,

REGARDING TODAY AND WHAT I FEEL ABOUT TODAY, YES I WAS FUCK UP, I WAS FEDUP, I HAVE THOUSAND AND ONE FEELINGS THAT CAUGHT IN ME. I WAS TOO CARRIED AWAY WITH WHAT I FEEL. SO YEAH.

I FELT MUCH MORE BETTER AFTER TALKING TO FIZA. YES, YOU HAVE ADVICE ME ETC. SAME GOES TO FIZA. SO YEAH.

REGARDING WHAT I TOLD YOU OF WHAT I TOLD SYAF, I KNOW YOU WAS CAUGHT UP OF WHAT YOU HEAR. I AM SORRY, LIKE I SAID IT WAS JUST A SAYING. I DONT MEAN IT. I DONT HAVE TO INTENTION TO HURT ANYONE, ESPECIALLY YOU MUHD AZRI.

JUST LET ME SHARE WITH YOU SOMETHING,
SINCE LAST TIME, I AM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO THINKS ABOUT PEOPLE FEELINGS, AND I SINCERELY LET GO THE ONE WHOM I LOVE, BECAUSE I RATHER SHE OTHER PPL HAPPINESS OTHER THEN MINE.

THIS LITTLE GIRL WHO ALWAYS GIVE AWAY WHOEVER SHE LOVE VERY MUCH, BECAUSE SHE BELIEVES THAT, IF ITS FATED TO BE SOMEONE NO MATTER HOW YOU LET GO OFF THAT SOMEONE IT WILL BOUNCE BACK TO YOU. TAKDIR KAN?

BUT FOR NOW, IM MUCH MORE WISER TO THINK. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH MUHD AZRI I WOULDNT WANT TO LOSE YOU. AND LIKE I ALWAYS TELL YOU THAT NO ONE WILL LEAVE ANYONE.

LISTEN HERE AND STATE THIS CLEAR IN YOUR MIND AND IN YOUR HEART,

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND I DONT HAVE ANYTHING AND WHATEVER THING IN MY MIND THAT HOLDING ME BACK TO LOVE YOU. I AM WHAT I AM. I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS YOU DO, REMEMBER THIS NURFARIDAH LOVES YOU. TAK PERNAH SATU HARI PUN MUHD AZRI TERSLIP DARI OTAK NURFARIDAH.

PAHAM. THANKYOU!

What a day. . .

2010-07-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

Hi sweetheart. .

What a day to start with at the beginning of the week rite? Hmm. .I guess so. I had a bad dream just yest. morning. But I was too hesitate to let u know as I wasn't thinking anything bad though. Today was not a good day for us rite. . ? Guess now we know that sumtimes people can't just see us happy together. . Sucks rite. . But this is the world and the people we're surrounded with now. I know ur bothered by what happen at skul this morning. I guess ur not alone in this, I was bothered too when I heard about it. What can we do rite. Best way is just to keep it quiet. .Tats all. . I know its not that easy for u and same goes for me. .and because of this, ur feeling down and I'm not in a mood too. .

Sayang, can I just ask u sumthing? Do u still have sumthing in mind or anything that you're holding back? I got to be frank with you that, we are in Love so deeply, u filled my life with laughters and joy and same goes for u. But in between those Joy and Love, I still sense that there is sumthing that you're holding back. .it's like ur not giving ur 100% yet in this relationship. Probably ur still afraid that history would repeat itself again. Same goes for u and same goes for me syg. .But I don't think its fair rite that I'm giving my all and there u r, still holding on to sumthing. .Everyone seems so agreeable with us being together. .I hope wat u said this morning to ur friends, ". .dier klau nk sangat ngan Azri, ambik lah. . " u don't have the thought or even mean a single word. .

I was really caught up with wat u said and yes it does sadden me to tell u the truth. Sayang, wat u face in the past is just part and parcel in life. Like I told u before, wat u face is just a little of it and wat I face is much more greater than it is. .But if I finally overcome that great fear. .I hope u do too. .Reflect on wat I say, I don't need u to tell me anything now. .I just need u to show me ur 100%. .tats all. . If I'm asking too much from u then I apologies to u in advance. .

All I wanna see is u being happy, smiling away and stress free. Tats all. From the very first beginning I did told u, if u have problems, u can share it with me, u can depend on me. U can tell ur friends, I don't mind at all. .Me as sumone who is going through the relationship with you, I hope u treat me as ur partner in life. I guess thats all I have to say to u lah k syg. .I got nothing more to say, and I guess I've tell u what I have been thinking all this while. .

Always love you. .

Azri.

You're always in my mind. .

2010-07-18T23:52:00.008+08:00

♥ Hello SWEETHEART!! ♥

It seems like this blog has been like our personal diary. A place for us to share our thoughts from time to time. Probably you would be writing in more than me as I'm busy with work. hehe. .Hence not to worry will set the time for the both of us and of course family.

This past few months knowing you and also officially be with you have been an awesome feeling for the both of us. Shukur allahamdullilah things have been good so far and not a glitch for the time being. Met your family, friends and close friends and am really glad that positive feedbacks came in till now. I was really glad that everyone surrounds you could accept me being with you and having the thought that they could mingle with me. .

Just 4th July its ur first time meeting my family. I guess it was quite nervous for you. .who doesn't rite for the first time. Well, today was ur 3rd meeting with my family and also outing. Again it seems good and well so far. .I hope you could really remain this way and I hope it will be this way for the longest time. .Wat can I expect more from you rite. .Being this way is just so much happier for me and I hope for you too. .

We're planning to go on a holiday towards end of this year. I hope the holiday would be a good get away from Singapore for the both of us. Still doing research and also scouting for places. hehe. .Am really can't wait for the time to come. .It's really gonna be a good one ya sayang. .

Sayang, each and everyday we never fail to make each other smile and laugh. .although we sumtimes have things that we just can't agree with but it's really a minor and joking one. .hehe. .I love it this way and love everything that is happening now. .I hope that this feeling wouldn't be a short one or just the beginning only. I'm glad to know that you love the comfort for all this time and that you feel save when ur with me. . From the moment I get to know you on MSN till now that I see you in front of me directly. .I just love each and every part of you. From ur sweet smile, long soft hair, shiny eyes and even luscious lips.

I LOVE YOU LOADS SWEETHEART.. EACH AND EVERY MORNING I WOKE UP TILL EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO BED, U JUST FILLED UP MY MIND NURFARIDAH BTE ABDUL RAZAK. TILL NOW AND FOREVER I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND TREASURE EACH AND EVERY MOMENTS. .

..I never fail to end my day without asking GOD

to take care and watch over you always

..wherever you are, whatever you do..I MISS YOU STILL AND ALWAYS..

2010-07-11T22:37:00.005+08:00

Hello love♥

Well, a week has past. School has been great for me. Well, everything was fine. Urms, tmorrow is Ite ce soccer girls big day, its Ite ce inter college tournaments. So yeah, goodluck to myself. Just hoping for the best tmorrow. I cant afford to have any injuries so yeah, kinda phobia. hahahs.

Anyway, yesterday sayang was busy taking shots for my aunt wedding. So yeah, well done sayang! (: geee..

Urms, today went out with sayang and his mummy. She finding for shoe. I swear his mum was freaking cute~ ! hahhas. i loikeee~ :D

Ive got nothing much to say, was worried for wednesday, all the best sayang. I'll pray for you day and night for a positive result. Insyallah. Amin.

Because you yourself know how much i love you.

I didnt know that i will love you this much

And till now sayang, even your chatting or otp with me

i still miss you. hurhurrr.

A month going to pass in 17 days time.

You've been a great lover, boyfriend, bestfriend and romeo

You treat me like a rose.

And sayang, thanks alot.

God brought an angel down to take care of me.

Till now,

Muhd Azri Md Amin Gan Soon Huat

i love and treasure.

Alhamdulillah.syukur.

2010-07-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

MUHD AZRI I LOVE ♥

US - 28th June 2010

2010-07-05T22:01:00.003+08:00

♥ Hello there, SWEETHEART!! ♥

Let me start with my day today. My day was not that fine as wat I thought it would be today and I guess alot of things screwed up. People chasing me for their projects and also went almost around Singapore for video shoot. Was not in a good mood today. All I need was just you by my side always. Whatever it is the day have been over and I hope it would be a pleasant one tomorrow.

Let's move on to you. You started skul back today. Guess it was a good thing for u. Cos, ur gonna finish ur last module and graduate soon. I hope your day been a good one although its damn long day for u, since 8am till 6pm. But, I guess u weren't that tired cos ur still outside at this hour. Despite me telling u nt to go out and nt wanting u to get scolded or babbling from mak, but u still insist. SIGH~. . .

Btw, let's talk about us now. I guess we reli had a well spent day yest. and we did sit down and talk about manging the relationship. I hope watever I talked to u yest. it stays in u and never forget abt it. Hope u would always think of wat I said and reminded u.

For u always must know that, I Care, Concern and Love u very much and that is why I'm guiding and take any means and measures for u. Its not for me bt for u and for the goodness of us. I hope u see it in a positive way syg. I wanna let u know that I meant serious in this relationship, and I just hope that we could last long in this Love that we built and share.

Always remember that I can guide u as much as u need it but at the end of the day, its u who make the choice and decision. Watever path u decide and take, make sure its the rite one syg. Klah, i guess enough said for now.

♥ I MISS U SOO MUCH AND REALLY WANNA MEET U SOON SWEETHEART!! LOVE U LOADS NURFARIDAH BTE ABDUL RAZAK. MUACKS!! ♥

Love is like a lump of gold,

Hard to get, and hard to hold.

Of all the girls I've ever met,

You're the one I can't forget.

I do believe that God above,

Created you for me to love.

He chose you from all the rest,

Because he knew I would love you best.

2010-07-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hello love ♥

Today was a wonderfull day, another great attempt from faa. lols, meeting his family members. I swear i was fucking freaking super duper NERVOUS. berape banyak bismillah aku bacer pun aku tak tahu. ahhahas. only god knows. hahahas. I met him in the cab then we head down to marina square to eat with his family at Manhattan's something something. The food was great.
Then we head to pool then to starbucks then our movie. Everything goes well, alhamdulillah. Thank god!

Then yaa. hahahas. so sayang's family and both of us went saparate ways, and we head to behind makansutra. hahahas. Well, thanks sayang for everything and thanks fiza for the encouragement. I succeed. ahahas. Alhamdulillah.

Great time spent with sayang's family, so yeah. Im happy that i wasnt being cock-up just now. hahahas. Faa sumpah lembut nak mampus. hahahhas.

Every moment spent with you i treasure it.

Every minute the clock ticks i want to let it stop because i wouldnt want it to be late-night so i can spent my time with you and not to worry about getting home late because the clock stops.

Hugging and resting my head on your shoulder can get me into a goodnight sleep.

Thanks for your wonderful shoulder, eventhou u turns to be step macho when ur shoulder get tired. sheeesh hehe. (:

I love you, and yes let me be your juliet till the rest of your life.

sheeesh.

Im done for now, school starts tmorrow at 8. So yeah, im looking forward for my last module. :D

and to you bestfriend, i love you.

2010-07-03T23:40:00.007+08:00

Dear love ♥,

Today was another awesome day. I met my botak boyfriend after his video shoot. So yeah, he said it was super tiring, but he likes doing all that right, so yeah. Cause i believe you will enjoy doing something you love. Now after seeing sayang taking photos i am looking forward to learn about photography. I like it, taking some unique photos. Like effing cool gitu lor~ hahas.

So, we head to The Cathay to purchase our very first movie together 'Letters to Juliet'. So yeah, then we off to makan at Mac. Then we hang around Plaza Sing. Then off to movie. Time well spent. I treasure every single time with you sayang ^^. Letter's to Juliet was freaking sweet movie that sayang says that "kusyuk u tengok" hahahas. Cute right my boyfriend. Lols.

So after our movie we walk around shops in The Cathay , then sayang saw this Shirt that was super nice. So yeah, he bought it. Then off we go to Raffles City to get his shoes and when bugis to buy my dress. So jyeah. Thankyou sayang.

I was having on and off menstration pains, its my first day. So, leave with it. Fuck menstration pains okay, luckily got my botak boyfriend that can manage to make me laugh and i forget about the pain.

So yeah, it has been 1 month and 1 week i know you. So yeah, things are very stable here and there. How i find about you is, your a nice guy who treats me very well. Your sweetness, your jokes. It seems likem your the guy side of FAA. hahas. like seriously, it just that you are more matured thinking, like duhh faa. :)

Every single time im with you, i know i'll be safe. Your warm hugs and kisses just blew me away. Telling me you love me every single time. We almost have the same interest, in music, photography, looking at unique stuffss.. I love every morning because every now and then u just make me smile and laugh even how sleepy i am. Im able to smile every time i woke up from sleep. Your nice, arent you? hahas. I am able to tell myself that i want be serious this time and at times im just scared to lose you, because your the freaking sweet angel that god just send down from above to meet me and love me and take good care of me. You dont have to tell me anything, i can see your sincerity.

Im always telling myself to think ahead because in this way i can think more positively and put away the negative things. Yes, in relationship there's hard times. Insyallah, we go through it smoothly without any single mark will left. Today is today, tommorrow is tommorrow. Just pray and wish for the best. Amin.

MUHD AZRI BIN MUHD AMIN

@ Gan Soon Huat ♥

I love you every single nano seconds, the clock hand moves.

I'll treasure you every single time spent with you.

I will be your juliet till my last heart rate beats.

and i meant it every single word i said, i love you my dear.

I will hold your hand and never let you go.

I'm wondering now, why am i being so emo today. hahas. oklah, i shall stop now.Hopefully all my bestfriends are doing fine out there. Pray hard for me, everything will turns out well tmorrow. Amin. Meet his family members. pheww.. Nervous..

Thanks alot god. :D

2010-07-03T02:10:00.002+08:00

Hello love.

Well, today was awesome. Why i called it awesome cause my botak boyfriend manage to tag along with my aunt and uncle. gee (: Achievement for you sayang *clap hands*. hahas. So yeah, Shairah's birthday goes well.. like always, timing problem. So yeah, thank god rain stop. Alhamdulillah.syukur. I was quite worried for cause i scared it might rain heavily again.. So yeah. *thumbsup!* *keningup-up^^* sheesh.

So yeah, on sunday is my turn to meet sayang's family. gahhh.. okay, relax faa. insyallah ^^. hahas. Was nervous. hahas. *pray to god*

My another sayang, FIZA had her hair done. Hahaa. It look nice. smooth. *credits to the shop*

Thats all for now, waiting for sayang's call. (:

well, u always make me smile day night morning..
♥ily, love.

2010-07-01T14:36:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO ♥
well, my days was awesome. urms, school gonna start on monday. yes on monday, sigh but nvm i get to meet my baby's. YES AH! have to catch up with them like, many many things lah. gee..
Urms, Ite Sc Tournament is on 12 July 10. So yeah, trainning regularly. Gonna be worn out, so yeah, gonna manage my time. Urms, ive got to clean my room then prepare for school becausse Friday, Saturday and Sunday im out. So yeah, if i were to pack my stuff these days i will be worn out by then. Shairah's birthday tommorrow, then yeah. Got alot to do. Im off now, to bath then clean my room. So yeah, Tc yaww.

831 means 'I Love You' 8 letters 3 words 1 meaning.

LOVE Blooms.

2010-06-30T00:15:00.006+08:00

Finally official on the 28th June 2010 approx. @ 8.30pm, on the bridge linking from esplanade to One Fullerton. We had our dinner at Lau Pa Sat before that then walk to Makansutra to meet up with Shairah. I was quite unsure to ask her the qs. as she is still uncertain about officially being together. I guess, at times u just need to try ur luck and u might nt know when is ur lucky day. I took all my courage to ask her the qs. but when we were having dinner we did talk about life and us.

I got a sweet smile from her and with a "YES" answer from her then. It was the happiest night for me and probably for us. I told her before and I told her then again and right now I'm telling her again that:

"I may not be the perfect guy that u ever wanted and I may not be a perfectionist. I'm just a normal average guy with a normal working life. I may not bring the whole world to you BUT I will always love you and remember you every day in my daily life. I'll treasure every moment with you and will always want to see you smiling away. I'll take good care of you and give my all out on this relationship."

Its been 2 months that we get to know each other. I guess u see the sincerity in me to u. I hope u give ur all out too for us and hold this relationship strong.

I will always Love You Sweetheart!!

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

2010-06-28T15:53:00.002+08:00

I was touched with bestfriend today. Awww..

Me: what if i were to be with him, what will u say ?
She: congrats!
Me: thats al l ?
She: -what do u xpect me to say?
-of course i'll say if he ever tries to break ur heart, i'll find him
-i always do that
-to my other friends bf
-^_^
Me: kasi aku kater2 smangat dokk!
She:*y?
*what's wrong?
*im really fine with thought of u guys together
**the thought
*aku pun tumpang gembira
*i know u'll be a great lover than a friend
*for sure
*no doubt on that
*so jia you!
Me: -i just dont want to make the wrong choice.
-the wrong move*
-*i need your support.

She: -why?
-*only mine?
-*no right?
Me:- you and irah.
She:*faa.
*like i said
*u've to take the risk
*u told me that u'll gain self confidence right
Me: *yeaps.
She:*abeh?
*i assure u
*if things were to go wrong, u can always fall back
*me and irah are there to catch u
*promise
Me: *aww..
She:*:)
Me: *thanks sayang.
She:*it's my pleasure.

i love my bestfriends (:

2010-06-28T02:01:00.002+08:00

Hello(:
Well, get to meetups with my other half and bestfriends to celebrate andy's birthday and watch my other half perform at the cathay. I miss them so badly. So yeah, anyway, plan was successful thanks to Nurhafizah Saban.

So, we head to grandlink with fiza, shairah andy and him then abang tag along. Had fun. I swear im nervous plus malu. Hahahas. like always. (: heh.

Jakarta trip was super fun. I learn alot of things. As days passes by, more and more character that i see in people was shocking,so yeah, anyway.. who live to please anyone. So yeah. (: shopping around with Fatin was hilarious. Everytime we came back, we are filled we more then 5 plastic bags. So yeah, proven girls can seriously shop till they drop. So yeah, objective is met.

Im off now, waiting for sayang to finish bathing.
Ily for now.

To my other half, i love you today i love you more tomorrow and i

love you much more the day after tomorrow.

I miss you. .

2010-06-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

HELLO. .

Its been 2 days since you're gone. . There's no call till now from you. Probably ur bz with training and tired at the end of the day. I just miss you soo much. Hope ur doing fine there. Had enough rest and make sure take care of urself. That's all I can ask for now. .

I miss so much the time u accompany me every night. I really hope u return fast and hear from you again love...Been filling up my time with work and also practicing for this coming Sunday performance. If ur not tired out from ur trip, hope u could come down and watch me with friends. .

That's all for now. .

Waiting for ur return sayang. .

- ♥ -

2010-06-20T15:36:00.001+08:00

♥

2010-06-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

HELLO :D

jakarta trip is 1 day away :D

woooahh!

oh well, packing-done

Attachment has ended. So yeah, my short holiday is here.

My weekends, has filled up with best people on earth♥

Yesterday was with,

Soccer Peeps & A.

and today with

Ooh Eeiraawwwr& Feezawr Belluci

♥♥

many things to catch up with you guys before our school reopens. So, anyway.. my days are goooodd! *thumbsup* everything turns out well. Urms, everynight everyday im filled with love songs. thanks to you ♥ Urms, im still scared. I can see effort from you. You try your very hard to prove me. So yeahs, i think everything should come naturally and slowly :) Insyallah.

Dimana ada jalan disitu lah ada Highwayyyyy! hahas.

Anyways, your teeth freaking cute sia. I swear! hahas. :D i loikee.

So, later on im meeting bestf for dinner. so yeahs, still not sure at where but yeah, anywhere will do. Urms, still not bathe yet. hahhas. FAA prangai busuk. ehehs.

Oklah, im done blogging for now. Sorry for the not much updates. As my sickness is getting strong penyakit 'M'. so yeahs, got to rest, having flu. sigh. ahahs. oh please . Anyway, ill update more after jakarta okie.

walau kini hanya berteman,bagi ku

sangat terindah setiap detik bersama♥

kau membuat aku bertanya,

kau buat aku mencari, tentang rasa ini.

aku tak mengerti, adakah sama seperti mu.

lalu senyuman mu menyadarkan ku,

kau cinta pertama dah terakhirku.

2010-06-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

Dear bestfriend,

Prior to your post on Monday, June 7, 2010

Im seriously gonna fuck you upside down, again after reading your super long post you make me cry again, i was fucking amazed about you. Mampos! Now, i think that your hobby now, is to make me cry right? your fucking sweet la ! haiyoo. awww.. ^^

What should i say? What must i say? All i can say is I love you bestfriend! Thats all.
I love you and yes, i do care about you but sometimes, i dont know what i really have to do to cure all the pains that you are having now. I may be a nurse, but im the useless one. I dont know, yes i did tell you to seek for doctors consent but ya, you refused. you said i sound nagging so what i do was to shut up and keep my comments to myself. Yes, i want you to heal to be like normal people but what else can i do other then making you happy and smile.
I know your smilling now. :D

Like i said, i may be the person who doesnt know you but reason of me not knowing you because i didnt want to, other knows about you and now they dissappear. I dont want to, so i want to keep on searching whats in you that keeps me closer to you. Your special you know. Your no differents then a rainbow who never fails to make ppl happy and smile. (:

I love you still now, and i still care about you now. You know me, i suck big time at time management. Dont get me wrong by not contacting you or etc. I suck at priortizing things. So yeah, i dont even need a boyfriend to make me happy, all i need now is you. You can make my day even you are at your worst. Dont worry bestfriend, dreams is just a dream.

Yes, i want to reverse the time but i dont want to change the time when the first time i met you.

Mistakes has been made. Wound have heal but the scars remained. I cant do much about the past but what i can do now is not to repeat what has been done in the past. People do mistake but mine was the stupid one. So yeah.

I love you bestfriend.

2010-06-01T23:20:00.001+08:00

2010-06-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

ITS JUNE NOWWWWWWWW !

20 more days to 21 June 2010 :D

RARA RAA AA ROMA ROMAMA! GAGA ULA LAAA!

you can see that im happy. hahhas. serious, freaking excited siaaa! hahahas. Anyway, attachment finishing soon and jakarta is getting nearer.

Urms, everything was okay. This cp is a enjoyable once. Few days ago was cock-up, i was f-sleepy. idky, i sleep like 8 hours also like not enough. Sighh,whats wrong eh? Nvm, Anyway.. Mum,dad and youngest brother is off to Malaysia for a holiday at Terengganu. So yeah, im left with my brothers. Urms, not much diff lah.. I still get to eat what i want.. Kak hamiza is here to cook for me. hahas. wasnt bullying hor!

Urms, Project work is half way done due to Azman because he was sick, so group discussion was not always complete.

GET WELL SOON BRO! :)

dont watch porn too mucchh! hehe!

GEMBEL, jangan egois!:)

i wasnt sure whether its ego or what, but ya..

Why issit so hard for me to be with you? Talking about looks? Urms, yeah u got it all.

But, what happen to my feelings?

deead-_-" ?

I was even scared to meet you, because im scared i would to fall in love.

Its v easy for me to fall in love, i swear.

I dont wish to be with anywant yet, i hope you would understand.

Im not mentally prepared. I dont want banana fruit two time.

ehehs. Anyway, im done for now. Off to bed, and yeah..

I shall call it a day.

i love you bestf <3

2010-05-24T11:22:00.002+08:00

Bloody fucker! I fucking pissed when it comes to you. Seriously, it was fucking so long since i gone mad at somebody. Bloody hell, fucker still got the bloody cheek to lie. Asshole. If i can kill you, i will kill you man! URGH! Im in such a state which you keep on pushing and pushing for me to do something i dont like. Wtf ? you got a life ? you owns a brain ? No/Yes ? Some people just cannot see me live happily, there's always this fucking bitch or fuckers who likes to disturb me and my friends. Move on, bitch! Stop it sial.I dont live to please anyone of you here. So bloody hell, dont disturb me and my friends MFucker. Im fucking extremely angry, ive told you once im not getting back to you, never again. BITCH. Dont mess with me fuckers. If your lack of love, please go and make your own advertisment and kindly highlight, -DESPRATE FOR LOVE!-

I dont mean to venge anger on anyone, im sorry.

* fuck yest sunday night! *

2010-05-24T02:52:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY FML!

:'(

2010-05-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

If i were to fall in love again,

i think its going to be a rebound love.

So yeah, who my next rebounder? hurr hurrr hurr.

2010-05-17T01:18:00.003+08:00

And yes to you bestf.

If only i could be in your shoes now and facing problems u hav nw.

If only i can understand what you really feel now.

You never fail to make me smile but for me,

what did i do to you to make u happy? nothing right. Nuts~

Im sorry i couldnt make u any better.

I fail to do so.

Sigh.

2010-05-16T22:56:00.001+08:00

ONE TEAM

Trust Honesty Sincerity

2010-05-16T22:15:00.002+08:00

3 Days 2 Night Soccer Camp!

Another great thing that make me keep on smiling and laughing was being surronded with great people which is my girls. Morning, night and afternoon throu out three days with them was super super fun one. Wouldnt have this much fun without the effort of Fiqah Nawawee. Thanks again Fiqah.

I came late due to attachment, reach school at 11 plus plus. So, Abg saw Mr Imran and yeah, he coach my brother last time few years back. Woah, (: small world!

So, hostel was awesome.. Wasnt especting much w the hostel. I thought was just a thought but it end up was awesome. hahas. Room mates is another awesome ppl. Rachel, Nad, Yani and Aisyah. Others came in and out and yeah. hahhs. hahahas. you guys are just bunch of great people. hahas. and i swear i make Burnese(im not sure how her name is spelt) laugh like crazy. hahhaas. And yeah, met new team mates. Objective was met, which was bonding.

Overall, our main issue is about ciggy. yeah, big issue i guess. Hrms, just like being honest then being betrayed. Im not pointing anyone out here, im putting things that way. Prompt me if im wrong. Yes, i agree with them if they were to take away our ciggy. First, its a sports camp and secondly we are in school and thirdly is because they care not because they are mean or cruel.

Upon giving trust and honesty to them. Ciggy that were surrended was lost and yeah some get back only a few sticks. What if we replace those sticks to dollars. Money is what i mean. Hrms, it will be more crazier right. hahahhas.

Sigh, its sad to see things like things went beforehend things was great and we can hear a great huge laughter and now, everything turns up to be tearing here and there. I couldnt say much, if it was me. I dont know how mad i will be. Just be more careful in terms like this. So yeah.

Most of all lesson learnt.

Perseverance

Tolerance

Patience

Honesty

Trust

LETS ROCK AND ROLL NOW BAY BEH!

JAKARTA COUNT DOWN ITS UP!

1 month 10 days left! (: hahahas

2010-05-16T21:16:00.004+08:00

Let me start how my days are. I am sick and tired of eveything. I gave up, yes i seriously did. I know could have overcome all this, but sadly yes i gave up. Im tearing n all and im seriously hurt upon some people who literally did hurt me. You know i could have be more stronger then this but my patience has come to the end that i couldnt take it anymore. Getting more stronger day by days.

But, i dont blame them. I blame myself, for being too helpful and giving hopes to people. Sometimes, when things get better i dont think about the bad things that can happen. So yeah, we have fun too much that it comes to the end that i have to leave .

Im shattered into pieces, after receivng some people respond when we want the best for them. But dang, its alright. Like bestf always says "things dont always turn up, the way we want" & "life is never easy". Yes, i was tearing infront of mom. Mom, always being there when i need her. Eventhough she is irritating at times, but she the best motivator and counsellor of all. I couldnt take it and yes im sorry bestf if i venge anger on you, wasnt my intention at all.

All i want is a hug.

I put aside these feelings and i went to attachment with a smile and laughter. Mdm N can just make my day with a blast. Seeing her laugh is something already. Friends always make my day, attachment friends i mean. Especially, musfirah and fatin. Another great people who made my day. Non-stop laughing. Laughing gas. ahahhas.

Anyway, life has to go on. Appriciate what i have now, family bestfriend and yeah my lappy who are always there with me through out my bad days eventhou i always venge my anger on lewis. He cant say anything. So yeah, my post is a long boring want, i know that.

You can leave too if u want..

Im erasing things that i shouldnt think of.

Attachment, was great. Everyday is like my wonderful day. The moment i step in the ward i erase my outside world and i concentrate in my skills.

So yeah, make my self busy so that i wont think of anything but only skills.

So yeah, i call it a post.

2010-05-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT? I GIVE UP! SERIOUSLY I GIVE UP!

I'll be away, now till whenever i like.

THANK YOU.

2010-04-18T22:53:00.007+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM(:

im sorry for not posting regularly. I was busy sleeping,spending time w friends,msn-ing and facebook-ing. Now, attachment has started and a week has past in Imh.

Was a good start,i loikee.. :D Have to catch up alot of things with fifi .

hahas. she best. *thumbs up* winkwink^^

Anywayyyy, its April already. woah. thats fast. super fast seriously.

[exuse her with that face. as ppl always know, she's mentel :) ]
Well, ASSHOLE to NurHafizah Saban .
hahahas. tu lahhh, kurang ajar lagi dalam msg. Tak msg lagi baru tau. Buat la lagi. hahahs. :P selengerrrr punye minah. hahha. lols. hahhahahas.

Well, went to Jb with ika and ayu. Watched Kl drift evo 2 at city sq and ate swensens. hahs. we were like busy comparing their swensens with sg la. hahas. kecoh. best. next movie is up. so Yeah. will be watching movie often over there. hahas.

(: anyone wants to join us ? beep me.

Make sure got passport, dont be like fiza okay. No to smuggling ah!I know fiza wasnt that"small" overall, thats why she gave me some of her pants.. i know. Noted. hheeehee.. peace to fiza.

Urms, so yeah.. she was here just now. She went off to Mgb. hahas. Syariff was with us too. Slack under my blk for awhile then off they go with Abg to Mgb then both brothers to kak Shila's bday party. Couldnt follow, abg dont let. So, nvm. hahas. Schooling anywayy..

Oklah. im off to bed. Goodnight people. Have a great weekdays alright.

Insyallah i will update my blog more regularly but if i dont excuse me alright. I might be tired due to attachment la. Understand understood la hor.

NIGHTS:)

*i just notice this, most of the post today its about fiza.hahhas.

lols. oh ya i forgot, she's SOMEBODY what*

Happy schooling fiza :D

Remember tolak 4 oranggg horrr. (:

2010-03-31T19:45:00.003+08:00

dengan engkau aku bercinta, kerana engkau cinta sejatiku;

hati dan persaan ini tak pernah berubah untuk kau;

insyallah, kalau ade jodoh kiter bertemu lagi.

siapa dia? rahsia. hahhaas.

Assalamualaikum~

Hrms, Its has been lonngg lonngg since i lst update kan? hahs. Urms, down with fever, flu,headache, backache and ichy2. hahs. Complicated benar. Was on bed for almost a week. Mum was down with me too. Usually, when im sick she always there with me giving me the TLC that she can. Then conincidence kiter sakit samer2. Urms, all i can do is depend on Bestf. (: Kadang-kadang, pelik jugakkan hidup ni. Orang yang kiter tak pernah tersangke akan tolong, tak kire siang ke malam tetap datang, sekadar nak kurangkan sakit kite. Alhamdulillah, dengan pertolongan si dia aku sihat sekarang ni. Amin. (:

Thanks for the msg-es best friends. (: im doing greeeat thanks to berkat doa korang.

Urms, So many many days has pass attachment belum start-start, urms exicted pulak. Have been skipping soccer trainning due to my ichhy-ness blum hilang-hilang. Urms, insyallah next week okay la kan.

Urms, So... life? Alhamdulillah, everything when smoothly.. Friends, Family, Cousins. Smuenye okay.. hahhas. Urms, semakin hari bertambah circle of friends aku. hahs. yeah. Has been staying at home this few days, then just then yesterday we are out to riding. (: heh, best. Pasal bulan penuh. hahas. i loike. i have touch the moon, have you? hhahas.

Urms, kaalau berbicara tentang cinta.. ade kelakar sikit. hahhas.

Cinta memang gile;

Soal Hati dan Perasaan tidak boleh di pakse;

Perasaan itu satu anugerah dan kite kene hargai perasaan itu.

Thats all that i can say.enjoy.tc.

2010-03-17T01:03:00.002+08:00

Girlfriend (:

FUCK MIGRANES. SIGH.

2010-03-10T16:24:00.004+08:00

HELLOOO!

its holiday people! hahaas.

wooooooooohs, 3 months has passed. Wow, thats fast. I dont feel it. ahhas. Anyway, exams ends already. So, yeah. Last Saturday went to funeral then follow by escape theme park with Crow Family. It was an awesome outing. Super-fun, hahas. geeee. Urms, I went off arnd 6 plus to meet mum at home then we off to eat dinner at east coast. hahas. Lols, betul2 punyer keluar! hahahas. Then Abang brought us to Marina Barrage as mum and zul never have a chance to go there before. hahas. There they go again, flying kite! hahahahs LOLS!

Next day, I woke up and get ready to wedding invitation. Companied mum. Then yeah, met cousins n'all . yeah, went back home straight to bed. hahahs. like PIG i know. ahahas. Slept till the next day. hahahs. It was my Bio exam. Yeah, glance thru my notes and again i seriously hate this part, i will like semangat flipping notes then i was abit dizzy. Urrgh! i swear i was scared for a moment. Having strange thoughts. I want to complete my modules. So i was just continue-ing with my papers and yeah, off i go. Went to consult doctor. Then i was like, just okay? -_- ? I felt much more better after the exam. It was like WTF?

Thanks NurHafizah Saban for accompany-ing me.

SAYANG KAU!

Urms, next day was pca. I slept at chalet on monday then early in the morning Din send me off to school. Thanks Din. (: Urms, It was fun la. hahhaas! gahhh!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SUHAIDI SUDIN ! (:

so yeah, my days has been fun with Crow Family! Urms, ayah is off to Aussie to meet his sister.hahhaas. Cheyy, anyway hopefully he's doing finee. (: amin.

Im off to far east with fizawrrr and shamira :)

Alright ill update soon.

Have a great day ahead readers (:

2010-03-06T07:50:00.003+08:00

HELLOWELLO~

urms, has been revising my pca & bio. Urms, many topics i hvnt yet cover.. Went school it was like takd maksud. hahas. lols seriously.. start at 9am but i came at 10 plus gitu. Then release at 11 plus. hahhas. its like urgh #$%! nvm..

Urms, had breakfast+lunch+dinner with fiza. (: hahas.Seriously, the food that we orded can cover all day. Wont get hungry want. hahhas. Its like damn alottt! ahahhs.Head to amk search for her things then window window shopping.Member was late for work. so yeah, rush here and there. Meet hamie on the evening to study together. hahas. Thanks to him, if not i would die standing. hahhas. There was this irritating crocoache.I hate it.. Urgh, super giler and ewww! so he sepak then it went innalillah. hahas. Arnd 1 hour gtu if im not wrong, he wants to see the crocoach condition, we found out that it went missing. jeng jeng jeng. HAAHHAA. soyeah, ntg much. well.. :) study well friends. goodluck. See yaa in class bbq.

i miss those moments when you came with your little-little surprise.

hahhas.have a safe journey friend! (: do buy for me aussie stuffs ok stricly no shoes and perfume. hahhas you know i know okayyy! CUTE~

2010-03-01T20:29:00.004+08:00

yang dicinta akan pergi

yang didamba akan hilang

hidupkan terus berjalan

meski penuh dengan tangisan

omg, ive been searching for this song like years. hahahas. lols. Today then i get to know the tittle of the song. I heard of this song at my friend's blog. Somehow, he himself also doesnt know what song it is. He just took it from one of the music player without any video. So yah, we know this song blindly. hahahas. heeee. go hear at youtube. (:

the song lyric is at the previous post.

Anyway, alhamdulillah things goes well and school ending pretty sooon.

Exams are around the corner. Well, i got to do alot and alot of revisions. I have been slacking like #%^@. hahas. Well, my weekends was great (: Anyway, its full moon. Subahanallah, its damn nice la. Bring me to the moon can? hahas.

2010-03-01T20:19:00.002+08:00

Artist : Krisna New SpectrumLirik Lagu :

Krishna Feat. Ale - Rahasia Indah
Lirik Krishna Feat. Ale - Rahasia Indah

Tak terbayangkan berjumpa dengan dirimu

Menjadi awal kisah kita berdua

Terlanjur jauh sudah ku jatuh hati padamu

Tanpa ku pikir lagi nyatanya ku salah

Reff :Mengapa tak katakan

Kau telah berduaMengapa berdusta

Tuk raih cintaku

Mestinya kau jujur padaku

Tulus padaku mungkin ku tak membalas

Ku tak mau berbagi cinta dengannya

Karna ku tak ingin ada yang terluka

Biarlah yang lalu menjadi

Sebuah rahasia indah kita berdua...

Dia yang pantas dapatkan cinta darimu

Karna dia yang pertama mencintamu

Kini berakhir sudah kepada keputusanku

Meskipun itu perih ku rela kau pergi

Back To Reff :

2010-02-28T17:39:00.002+08:00

Infatuation : it means that it's an affectionate r/s but takde motek tu semua ah.
Lust :Intense or unrestrained sexual craving.
Love : a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

2010-02-26T01:55:00.003+08:00

NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT,

CAUSE I HAVE ALREADY

THOUGHT OF IT BEFORE-HEND

heyhey, ahaahs. im not sleeping yet. yeah, hahas. currently chatting away with friends. hahas. Anyway, was bored. Somthing that i thought of it, and yeah it happen just now. yeaps, so neh.. I wasnt sad or etc la. im fine with it. I can't be bothered anymore. I know and i knew it. Nothing to be shock of. hahaha. i have everyone to be with. hhahas. So yeah, call it off. and back to square one. Wasnt our faith aites? ahhahhas. lol faith? do you even know whats love is in the first place?

hahhahs. nvm. wasnt your fault. hahahs. heeees. alright, anyway.. looking forward for the outing on march with bestfriends. (: jyeahh! wuhhooo! Anyway, i miss alot la kan. ahahs. yeah, its my fault for not being with them. Things has settle and yeah. My mind is free now. nothing much to think of.

I believe god choice is always perfect and

insyallah, i will get to find one future to come.

(: currently sitting back and relaxing.

:) cause, only you know how my life will end up.

you have answered my pray. thankyou.

alhamdulillah. amin (:

2010-02-25T21:19:00.005+08:00

helo(:

urms, has been busy with school lately. so yeah, we was against meridian jc last monday.

Result was draw. hahas 1-1. hahhas.

So yeah, anyway. im a mum of a child.

hahahahahs. Meet him, Amir ♥

By only looking at his picture can make my day ggguuuugugaga! haha

OMG, hahahhas. why do i so obsess with him? ahhas

Anyway, his father secret okey. hahhas.

hahahhas. shhhhsss..

anyway, syg. hahahs. 27th coming. heehes. (:

happy advance 2 months to us.

yes, its been a chaotic month for us.

insyallah this wont happen again.

pray hard, insyallah everything will be alright.

Many obstacles but still, we are staying strong.

alhamdulillah..

ily, (:

2010-02-21T02:10:00.003+08:00

hello :)
Its been weeks that i didnt post anything due to my ichy hands that i went to edit some of the url then after editting i found out that my boxes are all over the place. haha. So yeah, have to amend everything back. So ive actually done one yesterday then again everything turns out 'hentam bocai' after i put my song. hahas. See? How silly am i these few days. hahhas. Anyway, school has been tiring and all the projectwork are finishing soon. Jyeah! so yeah, and test are coming v soon. Hrms, got to be on my feet soon.. going to start studying v soon. Hrms, so my day was preety okay. Spent time with bf at JB. Anyway, i get to eat at Seoul Garden. hahas. Lols, i was like graving to go there since last year. hehs.

Night is getting late. I shall make a move and get to sleep.

Running nose is getting away

BUT

i still have a slight fever.

oh cinta,

aku berjanji kejadiaan seperti itu tidak terjadi lagi.

kerna ku teramat menyayangi kamu

seminggu tanpamu membuatku hilang.

akan aku sahut cabaran ini.

takdir cinta.

2010-02-08T20:30:00.001+08:00

MY HOROSCOPE FOR TODAY SAYS:

Love

There is a serious tone to your romantic affairs today, Sagittarius, so you will want to take things slowly today. This is a time where whether you are single or attached, you may take life very seriously now; and my even question major commitments and decisions you have made in the past. Do not expect your questioning to stick to one area, as you will find yourself contemplating many things such as career choices, place of residence, marriage and other major relationships. This is a time of self-analysis and questioning about the direction you have taken in your life. You won't see any major changes with love right now, but you most certainly will start laying the foundation to make some of your own for sure.

Daily Horoscope

Today is one of those days that is full of the unpredictable, Sagittarius. It seems as soon as something is pinned down, the situation changes: as soon as you've made a decision, the situation changes in such a way as to change your mind. You need to be adaptable and ready to shift from one mode to another. This does not mean following up on every temptation that presents itself, because some of your personal weaknesses may be coming out to play today. Stay focused on getting what you want, but be willing to change your plan.

2010-02-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

I MISS SUKARTI! ♥

hhahahahsa. yaaa, i miss herrr. weei, biler mau date ehh? ahhahas. sebat tetek kau baru tahu! hahhas. anyway, this sebat tetek thingyy has been ON among my classmates. hahhas. the girls sebat tetek each other and the guys will cubit2 tetek each other. hahahahas. LOLS. Hrms, anyway.. down with loads of project.. yeah, super banyaak. hahas. Met bby just now, went to eat dinner together. Urms, so nothing much laa... goonnnaa sleep. super tired.

I LOVE YOU TODAY, TMORROW, the day after tmorrow.. perhaps forever.

2010-02-01T23:09:00.004+08:00

EACH TIME I SEE YOU, I SEE THEM. YES I MISS THEM ALOT.

HELLO:)

hahahs. so yeah, got alot alot of pictures to post. Wait till i get it from a friend of mine okayy.. ahahas. Urms, yaaaa.. hahas.

ohk, mummy bring me go crazyyy. i was like laughing and laughing non-stop. haahhas. thanks mum. ily and forever i will okay! i wont dissapoint you. never again.. (:

I SWEEARRR BBY SLEEP LIKE OINK OINK!

no matter what i still love you ! hhahas. nights,

2010-01-30T13:40:00.002+08:00

ya allah, terangilah hati ibuku. Ampunkan la dosaku atas segala apa tlah ku lakukan ya allah. Ya allah, lembutkan lah hati ibuku ya allah. ya allah aku bermohon.

amin.

2010-01-30T00:59:00.003+08:00

ya allah, kuatkanlah semangatku untuk meneruskan hidup bersamanya.

2010-01-29T19:03:00.004+08:00

BONCET & SLENGER
♥

i cherish every single moments with you
♥.

2010-01-28T23:36:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 1 MONTHSARY BBY (:

Alhamdulillah, we have been 1 month together. Urms, gone thru abit of obstacles here and there. Insyallah, no matter what happens we gonna overcome all the obstacles. (:

He text me at 12.02am:

hahahahaa!! Its not 27 on my watch.. But still, I love you more!! :)).. Yeahh.. Let's do this together.. Dont dissapoint me baby.. Mmuackkkks!! *hugshugs*..

HAHHAHHA. bby oh bby. hahhas.

Went to Plaza Singapura to catch our Spy next door and ate at swensens.. (let the picture do the talking). hahhas. (: Had a great time with bby, we have to do this more often. hahaha yeah!

Urms, went sch today and yeah i was tired but nyeah.. met bby after school. Ate dinner at RK. After eating we head home. As we are super-tired.ahhas.

So yeah, thats all. Im off to sleep now. supsleepy laaa..Nights.

Bbyyy u make me turn blueee..

i love you alright.. (:

2010-01-16T14:46:00.002+08:00

COS YOU KNOW I SPENT EVERY BITS

and

PIECES OF MY LIFE WITH

YOU.

NOW YOU SEEMS EVERYTHING SEEMS

TRANSPARENT.

2010-01-16T14:20:00.003+08:00

A little sincerity is a dangerous thing, and a great deal of it is absolutely fatal.

The value of an idea has nothing whatever to do with the sincerity of the man who expresses it.

To give real service you must add something which cannot be bought or measured with money, and that is sincerity and integrity.

Faithfulness and sincerity are the highest things.

The true hypocrite is the one who ceases to perceive his deception, the one who lies with sincerity.

2010-01-16T14:03:00.003+08:00

hhello x)

alright, lets post. School has been f-ing tiring. study study study memorize memorize memorize. luckily i have my bunch of idiots who never stop making me laugh and just make my day. hahas. idiots idiots pun.. you all the best alright. hahas.

(mon's pubis) HAHA!

Well, yeah. everything is fine :)

everything is all about sincerity.

~Synonyms:truth, candor, frankness.

2010-01-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

i miss my girls :(

2010-01-09T22:50:00.003+08:00

now let me the show u the shape of my heart; FMAS ♥.

2010-01-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

YES, im back bloging now. Im nine days late of posting this post. I should post this on the first day of the year, but i didnt i thought of closing down blog. So yeah, anyway plans for this year is to serious put effort and study for my upcoming phase test and exams. I know im going to struggle but nvm. I ready to face all this. I have to buckup, as in really really buck up. I couldnt slow down anymore cause i will lose many important topics. Enough of relaxation and now concentrade. :) jyeah.

your the one i share my life with.

ily.

2009-12-31T15:35:00.003+08:00

Morning, i can smell 2010. Its getting fucking nearer. hahas. olright. Its full moon yesterday, and i got to see her for awhile only. Thought of following but neh, nvm. i guess she's having menses. TRY AGAIN FAA! yeah, :/ Urms, anyway.. Happy new year to all my fellow friends. Wish u guys a happy life ahead. No more problemo. Anyone got problemo dont hesitate to come down and confront me. Im always free for you aites, anyway i miss boyfriend already. *sigh*

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

2009-12-31T05:20:00.006+08:00

*YAWNNN*

bby's met with an accident just now.Gawrddd, sumpah motor baru je kiter cuci.motor rabak la. Thank god, bby is alright la. he had i little-little injury. Hahas, he was shock to see me after the moment he told me. hahas. LOLS. jyeahh, aku superwomen gtu lor.

I was chatting with bitch just now. hahas. okok, aku sstop it.hahas, sumpah kau sembelih aku jap agi. Then she found out that she was talking to herself cause i ran down to bby's accident place. haahs, sorry bitch i meant bestie. hahs. (:LOLSSSS! yelah2, hahhas.bby going to malaysia tmorrow. So going out with din tmorrow.JYEAH! (: abg, has been down with alot of things.jyeah, coool chill bro. hahas. Daaaa daaa. bby, bising im not asleep yet. :] alright nights readers. pssst, i tman bby on msn first his otw to mlysia. ahhas. but his driving so too bad faa tak leh msg2 bnyk. aloooohhhh!

i treasure every moment when im with you.

ily&imy.

2009-12-31T00:55:00.004+08:00

Seriously, su masak sedap sak. hahhaha!

BLACK PEPPER BEEF!

olright have a chat with that bitch just now.

yeah, seee you yourself knw your ego.

im telling u cos im your friend idiot. hahhas.

nvm. aku chill, yg penting kau sedar okey (:

doing all this for your own purpose. dah dah, takmo

nangis okey, nnty kau tak lawa. hahhas.

da daah, aku tak panggil kau bitch lagi. lek aku testing je.hahha

sayang kau!

2009-12-30T19:37:00.002+08:00

URGH!

FAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! DUMB-ASS!

and girl, you fucking egostic busted bitch! HAIX

move on bitch!

2009-12-30T01:36:00.006+08:00

27/12/09
♥

HELLO (:

heh, guess what? At last i went to Henderson Wave with Bby. Yeay, thanks dearest. haha, wanted to go there all this while.

So yeah what i crave for is granted.

So we meet the rest at Tampines One. They going off to catch a movie. Chipmunk. ive watch already! hahhas. Next movie we watch together okey, i promise. Anyway, bby and i went to lepak at coffeebean plus playing with bluff. hahha.bbby lost! wohoo!. (: hahas.

olright i stop here.

anyway, ntg. hahas.

Urms, so yeah, life has to move on.

like i said to fiza, im nt like faa like i drown for ppl whom dont

deserve my tears. I wont end life and feel sad for that long.

yes, tears do came out. But still, i want to continue life.

He teach me to move on. And now yes, we are together. He was there proving me wrong when i say im crook. I want be with him, i swear i was shock after knowing that he has been eyeing for me since that time. ahahas. So yeay, dont get me wrong. I dont want to be thinking of things i should not think of. Im not strong at first, now my friends and him made me stronger.

thankyou to him and friends.

i love you, as much as u do.

2009-12-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

i love my friends, they never fail to make me smile like before.

they never change their feelings toward me, they love you more then anything. They are there whenever you need them.

thats why i choose my friends then you B****!

im drown with you once, but now no more nonsence from me to be putting my friends behind. So, i love my friends. (:

;we drink drunk and dance.

Hello!

December is ending soon. and yeah, no problemo month anymore. (: So i enjoyed my days sleepover at Su's place with them. Jyeah!

Seee, i love psst. :D heh. shhs

breakrecord, i slept for 3 hours only. follow by not sleeping the other day then 3 hours of sleep then today i get to catch up with my sleep. Anyway, my bantal busuk smell like you(: hahhas. Isk. hahhas. So spent my days with ;)

Tmorrow; planning to go henderson wave. AT LAST! but early in the morning meeting andy,fiza&yasmin at tamp inter. andy got a interview for his Visual Communication. Yeah! (:

you got what you want.

anyway. idk why im this happy. hahas. no idea why. ok, so..

i shall stop my post here.

2009-12-23T08:00:00.003+08:00

Well, things goes fucking succky. Stop and i start to think for moment. Wtf? What on earth its happening? Whats wrong with this things all? Godd, my head its painful after sitting down on the sofa thinking through everything. Hais, it hurts me alot when you get to find out the one whom you fucking love goes to your own blood instead of yourself. wtf? wow, it amazed me. See, my instinct is correct. How cruel can love be? Urms, so what else shall i say? Like i promise to myself i shall leave and never come back. Stop it, your playing with my fucking heart @!%!@!

Met fiza just now, i felt so much better after talking to her all out. See, its fiza my bestfriend whom i need to talk to. Cause all this while my bestfriend are the one who sticks. Not you or you. So again, i apologise bestfriend! :( im blinded with fucking love. So whats love faa? Love is fucking blind. So yeah, learning from my mistake. Thankyou bestfriend.

Thanks to ek&su who always non-stop hit trying to know wheather im alright or not. I miss you fucking close friend of mine! hahas. Now, im done with my stuffs. Lets go fishing.
DRINK DRUNK AND DANCE. yeah, i love you close friend. (: you guys make me smile eventhou hw down am i.

And to my beloved cousins. LENNY SUMARNI&ANDY MULYONO
thanks for the stay over and thanks alot for comforting me when momments im down. so babby are you down down down ? im not down down down. No cry cry cry. No no no no.. (:

So yeah, currently its fiza birthday today. Its 8.15am yet we are not sleep yet. We, shairah andy and me. yeah. we are busy. (: youknwiknow. so shutup. stop being kpo fuck face!

so yeah, ppl. its the end of the story.. i feel so much better when i let eveything out. (:

2009-12-22T02:35:00.004+08:00

To bestfriend,

Well, 23 december its your 17th birthday. So i made a so called surprise for you last year with besties around you. But this time i couldnt as im following according to your wish. You doesnt want to see my face on your birthday and i shall respect that. So yeah, i should repay my sin that i make that makes you hate me so much that made you cried and breakdown. I useless friend, yeah. I admit that. Its the fucking useless faa anyway. Like i said i dont deserve to have you as my bestfriend. Eventhou i call you bestfriend but you dont. So i shall repay this as my sin of what i have done. I mark your words down.

So, ppl are curious arent you? Why i cared alot about her. She's my fucking heart who non-stop beating and keep me a life at all times. But why now im dead? Because she doesnt beats anymore. She hates me alot. yes, i made her cry. Im fucking egostic think about myself i dont think about my bestfriend opinion. Im FUCKING EGOISTIC. I dont deserve to have a good friend like her. I hurt her alot of times. Im not there when she needs someone to talk to. Im not the one who protects her. Im not the one who give a shoulder to lean on when she needs someone to lean on. I didnt hear her problems. IM SUCH A EGOISTIC BUSTED WHO DONT APPRECIATE PEOPLE! im angry with myself..

urh, nvm. I HATE MYSELF. FAA your fucking LOSER!

2009-12-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

I HATE THIS& I HATE THIS.

GOODBYE&NEVER COME BACK;

:'(

2009-12-21T23:25:00.004+08:00

hello bloggy.

hrms, its going to be 2 years of me blogging. hahas. i swear i cant stop laughing looking at my oldest post. hahas. But i improve alot i guess. hahahs,my alot is not to that extend that im good already la. My english still broken2. Hhhas. Like wise, faa gtu. Hahhas. Alright. From Dorkee to Banu Beckham to Faa. hahahs, FAA! hahahs. Okey, urms im already 17. haha. wow, haha. i live 17 years already. Alot of sins ive done. yups2.

Urms, so its my holiday now. I stayed at cousin's place. From 15 dec, which last wednesday till today. Its fun with them lenny&andy here. hahas. they make my day awesome eventhoug i get bullied almost everyday. hahas. Plus my aunt and uncle here hahas. they are bunch of cool ppl. hahhas. Hangging out with them. (: So yeah, meet ain all.. yeahyeah. yang penting Fan giler. hahhas. surat orange tu. hahas. nasib Dee ader tahu~! hahahs. Haha. being with them pun gerek because they are the supergilers. hahhas.

Urms, yeh. I dont know whats wrong with life. At times i feel like laughing my ass out. At times i feel like crying. I dont know whats wrng with my feelinga. If you going to ask me, ill say i dont know. Cause i myself not sure what should i feel. Cause it seems that im just following the flow. yeah, following the flow. I got nothing in my head now. Im totally blank. yes i repeat again BLANK! At times when im down, i know where i should go to.

It seems that im different now. I can see the different in myself. You guys may not understand what im trying to say. Im just feel that im different now. Only if i have the ability to built anticlockwise machine. I will. and i want to rewind and be happy and as cheerful as i am last time. I hate being this situation for many times. Im not strong like how i use to be last time. Day by day, my strength become weaker.

I dont know where should i start. I dont know where should i end. At times i feel useless, i dont think i deserve to get anything i want. Cos, i dont even appriciate things, ppl, friends, parents, cousin, siblings. I dont deserve to have good ppl around me. Cos, i dont appriciate them. Im useless. YES I AM. i suck at alll times. suck at love, friendship especially. So thats me, the useless bitch who dont deserve everything. Sometimes i felt digusted of myself. I think you should too. Stay away from me, or i shall hurt u ppl one day. Cos, im not perfect in anyway. I hurt ppl. I make ppl cry. Im making ppl life like troublesome..

sorry monica&F class, i know you just want us to meet badly i just dont feel i should even face anyone right now.

anyway, soon i shall go..

DISAPPER.

you ppl tc;

2009-12-19T06:27:00.002+08:00

2009-12-16T18:29:00.001+08:00

OMG, CAN I GO PLEASE! I WANT GO BADLY!!

Konsert Bagaikan Sakti : 1 Jan '10 : Esplanade, Singapore.
Come and experience the magical voices of M Nasir & Siti Nurhaliza on the first night of the New Year! M.Nasir and Siti Nurhaliza on the same stage

guess what ! FUCK! ITS SOLD OUT! :(

2009-12-16T17:30:00.001+08:00

you make me fall in love;

2009-12-16T16:41:00.004+08:00

HELLO,

hrmps, its wednesday yet girl friends busy working, yeah. Shairah can get a house soon. byeaahh. hahas. She's like working non-stop. hahhas. Urms, bbby start work today, hopefully bby perform well on first day of work. Bby naughty2 i hendak kepale u. hahahas. Hrms, im super duper bored. Im blogshopping, yet nothing looks great. Well, our cp pay is not yet up. URG! its delayed! /FXUK!; so yeah, no shopping meanwhile. status now is BROKE! hhahas no money no shopping. so yeah, going to cousin house tmorrow. Its boring at home. Mum&dad plus lil' brother going to KL tmorrow. I didnt want to go. `urms, i smell bangkok but i dont smell the plane. you get it ? hhahs. cos, i checked and the flight are quite tight. urms, i shall wait then~.

iloveyoueverysingletime.

2009-12-15T16:38:00.002+08:00

(: i couldnt stop smilling since yesterday night.

olright, yeah cp its over and christmas and new year is coming soonnn. Hrms, ystrdy went to mary's bday celeb at sentosa. Meet utt,ain,nani and that 2 girls. idk what their name. hahs. sorry. hahas. urms, so bought chips for mary. (: so head off to sentosa. Met awesome ppl and of course met bby too. So, i enjoy eating ppl food. esp the junk one. hahs. lols. opps, bocor rahsia. hahas. i couldnt stop eating. hahhas~ ntg much. so im still lying on bed not yet bath. hahas. Im gooing to clean my room as i plan earlier. As soon as i finish i going to head to bby's place to bby and cousin. olright tc readers.

FUCKUP~

2009-12-13T12:29:00.001+08:00

2009-12-11T01:04:00.004+08:00

I MISS MY KELING! :(

you aim and you shot me straight into my heart,

2009-12-04T00:02:00.001+08:00

So yeah, (: nights. ily baby.

mwahss.

2009-12-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

hello love (:

SHEDULE

5th dec/saturday-morning shift(replacement),meet bby&off to pasir ris to meet shairah at pasir ris to diyana's birthday party.
6th dec/sunday- stay at home
7thdec/monday-morning shift
8th dec/tuesday-morning shift
9th dec/wednesday-morning shift
10th dec/thursday-afternoon shift
11th dec/friday-morning shift, going to natasha's bday party at pasir ris after 6pm
12th dec/saturday- morning shift (replacement),outs with cp cliques.
14th dec/monday- morning shift(replacement)

reminder- 23 dec, fiza's birthday

2009-12-02T23:40:00.003+08:00

ITS MY FAULT ANYWAY, so live without it faaaa. (:

sudah tu sudah sayang nangis tidak berlagu lagi,
♥

2009-12-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

Brain Hemorrhage

A brain hemorrhage is a type of stroke. It occurs when bleeding into the brain kills brain cells.

It can occur as bleeding:
-Inside the brain
-Between the brain and the membranes that cover it
-Between the layers of the brain's covering
-Between the skull and the covering of the brain

Symptoms of a Brain Hemorrhage
Signs of bleeding inside the skull tend to come on rapidly and include:
-A sudden headache
-Steadily increasing neurologic losses such as weakness, inability to move, numbness, loss of speech or vision and confusion
-Nausea and vomiting
-Seizures
-Loss of consciousness

Causes and Risk Factors for a Brain Hemorrhage
These include:

Abnormalities in blood vessels in and around the brain, such as an arteriovenous malformation These may be present from birth. They are only found if symptoms develop.
Aneurysm. This is a weakening in a blood vessel wall that swells. It can burst and bleed into the brain leading to a stroke.
High blood pressure. High blood pressure over a long time can weaken blood vessel walls.
Amyloid angiopathy: This is an abnormality in the blood vessel walls. It occurs more often as we age. It may cause many small, unnoticed bleeds before causing a large one.

Diagnosing a Brain Hemorrhage
Doctors hearing the symptoms a patient has may strongly suspect bleeding inside the skull.
This may be confirmed using a computed tomography (CT) scan of the brain. If not, a spinal tap can be used to confirm or rule out subarachnoid hemorrhage (bleeding between the layers of the covering of the brain). A spinal tap may also be needed if infection is suspected. Magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), CT angiogram and/or contrast angiography may be needed to complete the diagnosis and help doctors to decide on the proper treatment.

Treating a Brain Hemorrhage
Treatment for bleeding inside the skull varies, depending on what caused it, where it is and how large it is.

Treatment may include:
Diagnostic radiology
Interventional radiology
Microsurgical techniques can be used to treat abnormal or leaky vessels

2009-12-01T00:25:00.004+08:00

hello,
I was down with badheadache and keep on vomitting.. Stayed home all i do is sleep and facebook-ing and chatting. B, went out with friends finding for jobs.

Miss b alot. Urms, should be talking on the phone with b now but i guess should be sleeping.

nahs, its okay. (: nights love

i want be the one who are there for you when your feeling down.

;i want to lend you my shoulder when you need someone to lean on.

2009-11-29T02:24:00.002+08:00

olright. ive finish touhing up my new blog skin (: ,

Akan ku menghayati saat-saat bersamamu

walaupun sesaat.

ily.imy.

2009-11-28T23:36:00.005+08:00

Cont, of the previous post.

So, i relieve around 4 plus. head to tok mek house. then after that went to mum side. Everythng seems fine. Then i called baby, shes sick eyh. Force her to eat medicine. haahas. tahu pun takot! hahas. S0 yeah, ntg much Celebrate Rasul's bday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASUL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIK ANA!

2009-11-28T23:17:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI!

so, woke up and i had a headache. So, i went to kitchen and took my medication. So i slept back eventhou mum has been asking me to take a bath teen times. I still refused and i head to bed again. Suddenly i felt that i couldnt open my left eye i wanted to move my right hand to touch it i could move too. i thought i was dreaming or what, but im not. I did shout for mum but no one come. Everyone busy dressing up for raya. So, i did say some prayers. and i try to move again i couldnt. When my second approach me this time i told him i couldnt move. then he called mum and both of them try to move me. I only remeber till this part and the rest of it till i went to sleep back.

Mum told me that, my body was stiff and i couldnt talk properly. It scare me this part, she told me that i had too much oxygen then my bro took a plastic bag cover my mouth and wants me to breath in and out slowly. My eyes are rolling upwards and i was like going to go away. i dont remember that i mention " mum, im scared help me". Mum told me that i said that. My gums are stiff my tough was about to go up. Bro tell me that i hyperventilate.

Im damn weak at that moment of time. Glad, ntg happen to me. thanks to my brother.

omg.